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Sunday, April 12, 2009
its quite sad to be feeling this way on easter.
im also tired of saying how troubled i am. my frens say i rant a lot. maybe i'll feel better? probably thats why im here again. was just thinking maybe the problem lies with my attitude. i know that i need to do something about my life..but somehow i just brush it aside and nothing's done, my life as stagnant as it is. INERTIA? miss low's repeating herself perpetually; listen to your playing! she says. perhaps i understand why im not improving at all even after the 2 months hiatus. -when im playing, im thinking about eating, studies, or going out? -when im studying, im rapping along with timberland. and then i wonder why after 4 hours, i still breakdown? perhaps another factor would be a paucity of perseverance. no wonder im never an achiever-anything would be mediocre. i flinch when the going gets tough, i quit when im tired. i can hardly even be determined to finish reading a book a primary 5 could finish in a day. they say everyone has a hidden talent. what's mine, i dare to wonder. i hate feeling this way. but someday these problems will have to be addressed. and i take it upon this reflection. 12:27 AM;
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